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i am unhappy and unsatisfied with my study life now.
i chat with my brother just now.
tears trickling down.
i dont feel the excitement to attend class at all.
why?
because i know these arent what i want,expect and hope for.
everyday when i wake up,i was like oh no have to attend class again.
i dont have the ohm the power the strength to move on everyday.
i drag myself to school.
i was like this is my reponsibility, i have to.
but i know these arent what i wish for.
is college life like this?
i dont like it.
i thought college life should be wonderful, not to say wonderful.
but maybe full of fun and joy.
a place a condition an environment that i like i love and i am willing to move on everyday.
this aint a thing that i have full of anticipation for everyday.
everyday, i just hope the class and the day end as fast as possible.
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-i just wanna scream and lose control, throw my hand and let it go, forget about everything and runaway~
-throw it away forget yesterday we ll make the great escape.
-and even when your hope is gone, move along move along like i know you'll too

everytime when i am seriously depressed, these part of lyrics will come to my mind.
and i will listen for the whole day until i am okay
hope it works.
;)






nights!
serious headache.
nearly pengsan when i am going to the toilet
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