countdown to parties and relaxations! :P

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
final is on the coming saturday ><
well, time flies
hahaha
my 2nd sem is going to end onnnnnnn tadaaaaaaaaaaaa thursday 12th!
officially ends hahhahaha
yeepie how tough is 2nd sem and now, i am slowly going through everything
seriously, not that worse like what i've thought of hahaha
no worries man! hhahaha
put a big smile on your face and you will be so cool everyday =)
last presentation is on this coming thursday
and i will be so done with those effing presentations and assignments wulala
presentation is not a problem for me anymore
experiences that i get rock me out hiak!
just one thinking is enough: every students are here to learn! all of us are the same =) foundation rocks hahahahahhaha

yest few friends of Help went to the MAD charity show which was organised by Help A levels students hahahahha
hui ru is one of the organizer as she is taking a levels in help
rock together toooo XD
it was held at MOS wow i was like i wanna go take a look perhaps
hahahahahhahaha!
the event started at 7 and we are supposed to reach at 7 ma!
but then arghhhh timing all went wrong
wan zhan the driver, rebecca, me and wan yee were all late prepared so we took off late hahaha and what's the worst thing in kl? yep! traffic jam!
arghhhhhhhhhhhh stuck in the jam for so long==
reached there at 9 something i think
so late laaaaa duh
went in and it was so crowded
you hao came to join us=)
we decided not to watch the performance.
we just took a sit at the sofa place chit chat hahaha
after the event ends around 10, hiak!
it's time to shake your body
they asked us all to leave MOS, everyone! and have to go in again one by one, with checking ic==
omg i was like i am not legal la wey == my birthday havent pass lehhhh
so, we came up with a plan like everyone else does.
rebecca, wan yee and wan zhan went in 1st then they pass rebecca's ic to me from another exit. you hao took it for me.then wahhahaha successfully sneak in! =)
gengggg!
shake shake rock rock hahaha
it's techno nightttt not baddddd but still, more used to the r&b songs being played in usual clubs.
hahahaha it's a goooood night :)



oh yeaaaa
i am in the fashion show, sort of thingy for our prom night at 12th november.
there will be a fashion show which was managed by a modeling company
hell yeahhhh
and yest noon ie before going to MAD, there was a workshop to let the models for the event to practise and choose of course eliminating some failed-models too
i was like ok just take a try as i have promised corliss
herm
a amo model which is studying in HELP too coached us
arghhhh
one by one, we have to like cat walk ==
hahah
herm
i did it well i guess, many ppl praised
i am not eliminated toooo hahaha
hiak!
say i got the style, my structure is good, some asked me do you go for ballet dancing?your back is nice and straight
i was like arrrrr am i so goood?in my mind la
hahahahah
well, maybe some of my friends will find out or know that MODEL this word sipek jodoh with me
i dont know why
since primary school, it's like over and over again model model model cat walk cat walk cat walk
hahahhahahahha
eh and the modeling thingy will be quite fun and i will have fun too.
i want my life with more colours hehehhehe.it's part of experience too
why fun? the outfit will also be sponsored by the modeling company.
what's in your mind?
COOL ryte?
XDXD


i feel superb in trying new things
hahahahahha
i fear nothing
hiak!
andddddd lastly i wont miss out with HIM
thanks DEAR
hahahah
you remember i said i wanna eat chai bui when i go back
and although you remember wrongly that i am going back this thursday instead of next thurday, you are so sweet that you asked your mum too cook chai bui
hahahahhaha
and arghhhh i dont want to give your family a PIG image!
==
dumb ass
hahahaha



cant wait to go back
miss alor star so so so so much
=)
dad went to miri with his friends yest
hope he has lotsa fun with his gang hahahahha
XDXD
buy me stufff dad.
hehehhehehe
=P


alright.
stop here liaoooooooo
bye peeps.
loves!

one family! X)

eeeeeeeeeeee hahahah

bunny bunny! rabbit rabbit!

haha he sayang bunny! i asked him to do so==

he: bunny want to smoke == hahahah

hi bunny hi teddy! hehee



love you
miss you
=)

oooops fast update! XD

no size liao wuwuwu.left 2 pieces when i get there to buy it! arghhh, i am too lateee.should buy it when the 1st time i saw and love it! ><

mum said it's a lil mature ><

looks like sleeping shorts? argh i like it too.but at last didnt buy! ><

no size! i want S size or maybe XS.== left bigggggerrrr punyeee

p/s: i am the hot sexy chic! hahahahhaah
><



2 more presentations to go, and my final thennnn hiak!
bye 2nd sem!
hi sem break!
XDXD


cheeeriooooo!
in love with california girls!
hahahah

i want to shop shop shop!
dont wooryyyy
i willlll!
this weekend!
whhahhahahah
XD


=)

restart!

yor yor yor
hahahah
we get back!
and we're so fine
hehehhe
love you lots!
what is supposed to be is yy come and find sue ning
then hehe a day before yy came, i text him, i told him i wanted him to come so much. we're not couple but i wanted to see him much blahhhhh
he give me blah reasons like telling me he really not very want to comeeeee
lol
then ok i just cincai engsiu say oh nvm blah
then heheheh the next day, he came with yy!
XDXD
damn happy
hahahahahhahaha
but just friends la
treat him nothing special
but seriously i know i am very awkward and i treat him in some kind of way like ignore or what la dont know
simply because in this situation in our status, i really dont know can how to react and respond
sounds so weird
i cant get use to it yet
arghhhh
we fought in red box
half way!
==
he scolded me like hell!
i just ignore and i stop singing
the atmosphere went weird
arghhhh
then sue ning and yy went out, left us in the room
he came to me and ask me why treat him like that blahhhhh
i kept quiet
after that i told him i just simply dont know how to react after we break up
it's totally different
haih
then we just act normal la like normal friends
==

he and yy overnight in my hostel as our genting plan have to delay a day
yun overnight at her friend's house
then yy slept early, we talked before both sleep
hahahaha
then hehe he decided to take a step forward and change
then he asked what about me? how i think and decide?
hahaha i just kesi engsiu him
but both of us know we're fine and we're so in love with each other
he hug me so tightly and i hug him so tightly, both of us miss each other so much that we dont really want to let go
he hug me to sleep for the whole night.
><
hahahha
damn happy
then the next day we 4 went to genting
had a great and sweet time there
hahahahha
thanks for coming to find me and spending so much money for us to have fun
><
for me i mean
hahahahaha
actually, no matter where la, as long as you're with me, you're there, everywhere will be perfect to me.
hahahahha
XD
we went to play dingding><
wasted rm100 something playing then at last get only 502 points
then i redeem the HIM toy==
argghhhhhh
what a waste
><

next day, i have to rush back as i got quiz at 11
no bus! all were fully occupied
no choice, he asked for a cab
cost rm80!
what the ==
thank you! hahahaha
if not my 10% quiz byebye dy
hahahha


thanks thanks thanks
for spending and wasting so much money on me><
i simply love you THAT much
hahahahah
lalala

miss you right after you went back pg!
arghhhhh
nvm la. i am going back at 12th august
fast please!
arhhh
i want to hug you tightttt
hehehee


urm i cut short my post
as there are too much things to talk
hehehehe
i will upload more photos
photos are with suening
heheheh
nice photo really!
XD


ciao!

toooooooo happy!



=P

you're so whatever!

早知道什么都不该说
换来的只是不屑　
以为会是关心，慰问
却什么都不是
不该再有任何希望了
现在　好比你有你的生活　我有我的生活
互不干扰了

><
i hate you

move on.

thankyou for telling me showing me that i am not important at all
it hurts
but i get it
maybe that's it
and i should not have hope on you
you show me no hope
you prove me no hope
;(


evelyn broke up with chee peng
it's sad
seriously sad case
not many ppl know this
but i still feel sad for them for eve
why break up?
sighhh
is this the break up season?
somebody post and ask this in fb
i stunned and slowly i realised ya, many couples broke up in this so-called break up season
hope everyone is fine, hope every couple that are in this risk can get over this
blessing to everyone
=)

as i comfort eve
i myself feel so so so sour
i ask her not to think so like urm he not love her, playing around or what
me myself felt so funny as i do think so
and if i am her i surely will feel so
i get myself so stunned and hilarious
felt so extreme
what i type what i comfort and what i think what i feel in my heart
no matter how, i still wish others happy and blissful
haihhhhhh


starting to get used to everything here without you
=(
starting to stop myself from waiting for you to text me,call me,chat with me
starting to release


feel like wanna cry
why so useless?
where's your spirit?
where's your belief?
it's gone.
i cant go on, move on waiting for you without you showing me that i can, we can.
maybe that's the end


thanks for everything
thanks for the memories
the truth is having you is the most beautiful memory in my life
thank you
and love you for once and last.
;)


you must move on kay?
you must be better kay?
=)



my heart my soul feels tired
feel wanna cry seriously
thanks for the song 会呼吸的痛 ><
it suits my mood however




move on move on.

;)

你的一举一动已经明确清楚地告诉我你的意思了
别担心
我会尊重你 更会祝福你
=）
或许我也不应该有所寄望了
是时候结束一切了
明天会更好

prepare!

had break for an hour half just now
went to watson with rebecca：yeng==
since this coming friday we are going to gopeng for the hmc leadership camp
of course must be well-prepared.
we've been told to prepare this stupid thing to prevent mosquitoes bite
lol
maka want go pak jian like that
lol!
hahahahah
well, better prepare hoseh 1st
later hami pun bo then die chamcham
i dont want my leg cacat
hahahaha
then bought tooth brush
mmy tooth brush going cacat slowly dy><
dont have time and dont know where to buy the brush to change with the old one
==
ma huan si.
go back hometown only find le.
hehe it's blueeeee this time
before one is greeen==
blue and green also like.lol!
==!

then just now pia out my argumentative essay within an hour half with 990 words
hehe
submit dy phewwww!
due date is 11pm toddayyyyyyyy
luckily submit in time
hahahahahha

then i borrow one tracksuit from swing
i didnt bring any here la
so borrow 1st in case mah
but i think mostly will wear school shorts
hahahaha

yor
but i think my period will crush with the camp date
fuck
i want to go playyyyy but now, almost the date dy
i dont want laaaa sieeeeen
==
arghhhhhhhhhhhh


must have fun
i dont careeeeee
>< hiak!

你不懂

><
so long didnt listen liao
suddenly remember this song.hahahhaa
yea yea sue ning faster come
cant wait to go sing liaoooo weyyyyyy
want rock my pants off dy
i dont want and i hope i wont end up singing sad songs till the end of our singing day kay?
==
lol me

他还是不懂!
==

eclipse! toy story 3!

thought of watching eclipse with you
><
but i guess there's no chance anymore
it's like i wont be seeing you forever
guess i will end up watching eclipse with dumb sue ning
well, it's okay
and toy story 3
i said i want to watch with youuuuuuuuuuu
well, again i think i wont be seeing you and watching theseee movies with you
again sue ning.hahahahaha
faster come la sue ning
feel like want to sing and shout><
sleep sleep sleeep

without you.

sleepless night.it's 7 in the morning

i miss him too

baby R miss daddy ><

well,
still the same i miss him
still the same we're not belong to each other anymore
that's what make sense for not texting you calling you or nudge you or chat in fb
although i wanted
view at your profile times and times
look at whether you're in green light(you're there), white light(away) or no light(offline)
waiting to have the chance to chat with you, know how are you doing lately these days without me
wish you are better day after day=)
stalk at you in fb to see how are you doing what are you doing
sounds dumb==

sometimes i think
herm maybe everything between us will end slowly along with the time and air
not even a decision
but the time and air flow eat everything up
but i am ready for it
since there's no way out without you making a decision
and it seems to be so hard for you
so i decided not to force
but the risk is it will end with no sound no tears no image no memories
end naturally ;(
time is tooo geng
==
lol
nvm, you dont have to rush for this decision anymore
you have things to worry besides this
go for the more important one
i am okay
although i dont know what are your other problems, i think they are more important
take it easy
dont stress
slowly analyse and solve it one by one
dont make rush decision, make wise decision
go for what's important for you
you can do it.
as i believe you and i got faith on you
dont lost youself
no matter how, you know i am here,i will guide you, i will help you out
when you find yourself so helpless, you can rely on me
kayao kayao!
have faith in yourself
trust yourself as you are so special in this world
you are the only chan yong you what
do things in your way you like
everything that you face may help you to improve and be wiser in future
;)
i am here. dont worry
i bless youuuuu always!
although i really dont have good luck hehe, if got then i share with you ok.><
lol me.
god will bless you too


love you,
always have always do
seriously, i dont want to 习惯没有你的日子
it feels like once i 习惯 then there is really no turning point.
;(
sounds hilarious.
haih
whatever it is, just let it be
everything is out of our control
bless us==

i dont really know.

you touched she touched
you cried she hold back
==
how dramatic
but well, both of you admit i am really a good one
=)
takan my post so geng so gam dong
i read liao soso la
==
lol
but you two ya sue ning and rebecca kam dai fan yeng?!
hahahhaha
at least somehow, i know i am good in a way.
hahhaha
sue ning said she should change, she can realise the love in me
ahahhaha
i am so god la==
rebecca feel so sad for me aiyoooooo
said that i am so goood
maybe she is slowly in love with me liaoooooo
lol!


i dont know what's the situation now
i dont know what you want
you didnt contact for more than a day without telling me
at least tell me you need time or what
but you never
leave me hanging so high wondering what's wrong
are we over or you have gave up
==
i cant tahan la stucking in the middle so i text you call you
you didnt answer
i am really fucking hot liao
why so no jiao dai ehhhh
at least say something
you know i hate you like this ah
after that kinda like i forced you to reply
and you say you need time blah
then in msn pm you wrote just say if you dont want to
i replied you know what i want =(
you: scare i cant do it
me: (something like) - why dont you try? i rather prefer you to try. as if there is nothing between us worth for you to try?

somehow,
why cant you try
you know what i want is you to try
i dont care what will happen in the end
i want you to step out
if you could realise, i am just trying to help you
no matter in me, us or maybe your future
you scared that you may hurt me and make me sad
but the truth is knowing you arent willing to give a try is more painful than you think

let this problem flows naturally with the air
i have no idea
and i really dont know what can i do anymore
no matter what, i still will accept the truth in the end

problem is still problem
still need to be solved
shua, communication is better than escape.
kayao.

him!

when he was young >< lame

i like his always suan me expression hehe

the 1st picture or us

my favourite picture of him.natural smile =D

he said this is funny ><

>< i am not forcing him to kiss me ==

his sleeping pattern ><

took them in queensbay 25/7 9 months

he said he looks like kid so cute ==
yaaaa :)

he looks so dumb in this.because of his hair.long liaooooo ><

chan yong you.

you're still that charming
still that cute
still that skinny
still that "stiff smile"
still that funnyyyyy
saw your recent look through some new photos in fb
you've cut your hair
still look so gooooood
looking you through the screen, makes me wanna hug you
;(
how much i hope you are here, give me a hug pleaseeee
awww. i want you!!! ishhh.
I like you in 2 photos
you try to smile showing your teeth but you actually grinned
hahahaha
so cute
ya la you cant smile hoho lai eh
but i super like you smile showing your teeth
but be more natural la
><

you're still the same you chan yong you
but
the only difference is that you're not mine anymore
this seriously comes to an end
i have nothing else to hope for
what i want is you to be better, healthier, wiser, and everything good comes to you
i want you to get the best in your life and your future
dont worry
you wont be any worse
because i always will pray hard for you
you're the only one that i seriously in love with, want to be with forever.
i guess our relationship is not strong enough to fight with upcoming difficulties
i guess we're just not that suitable for each other
perhaps or for sure one day you will find someone as your long life partner, i sure will jealous but i hope she will be the greatest one and give you whatever you want.
she must be better than me
yala i admit that i am kinda terrible
so sorry for everything that i've did to you in the past
no matter in what way that i make you sad, angry, tulan, pekchek, hurt blahhhh
so so so sorry

btw, you must kayao for your future dont make your family disappoiinted!
and me although whatever i think and feel to you is not important anymore
but i am still here concerning you always.
must be responsible in what you do
you're not any 18 19 year-old teen anymore
you're 20 this year
you have to be more mature
i believe you can do that
i never look down on you never think that you cant before
because i simply have the faith and trust on you that you will succeed one day you will be the best man ever trust yourself

lastly, i hope you can get rid of your past of being hurt and sad deeply
you can do it!
past is past look forward
i told you before, someone will appreciate your good
dont stop in giving and receiving
accept and receive someone's good with a wide heart
and give your good to that one you feel that it's worth it
dont lock yourself up
you cant feel and enjoy the two way relationship that it is supposed to be
i fail in this relationship but i never regret
you are so that worthy to me for loving you caring you adoring you sayang you sacrificing for you
you are so special.special person that i ever met in my life
proud to say that you're the one i love the most in my life

seriously and honestly, i am so jealous and envy evelyn the one you love the most in your life she was so blissful to have you to love her adore her sayang her care her sacrifice for her the most
sometimes how i hope i am her
but i cant and i wont be her i know
it's impossible
but at least not too less?
maybe this is karma ;(
but i never regret having you although i dont have the fully you
but at least i think not less than half of you
from the day we started, i am wondering when will you totally fall into me?
how only will you fall into me?
i dont know.i have done everything i can all this while
i believe as long as i use my heart to love you care you sayang you treat you the best
someday, you will realise and get touched and love me.
that's truth of heart haha
if i am evelyn, i will be soooooooo happy and blissful ><
at least i am so sayang by you
not that you didnt sayang me
but maybe not that much like you used to sayang her
why so jealous lst! no la.just envy ==!
i got my own good maaaaaa(consoling)
should not ask for too much
but aiya everything ended.so dont siao liao.
==
just thoughts and feelings la ok.
lol.


must take care you know
i will bless you, share my luck with you( although i dont really have great luck), i want all the best to you
good luck dear ( the last time i called)
i love you
seriously love you
no matter what happen in the future, just remember that i am always here for you
only with different status
must remember and keep all the best memories between us.
i would certainly be happy if sometimes or maybe once or twice, you will take it out, remember it.i dont hope much.
just want you to remember me this girl that exist in your life before
;(
dont forget me
dont forget us
dont forget our memories
i miss you ;(


kayao!
all the best!
greatest luck!
take care!
dont sleep late!
mind your health please!
health is wealth!



lots of love,
Lim Sue Ting

muacks
love you most!
i love you
always have,always will
;)

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