HATE hate hate

i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you.
i hate you!!!
i hate you damnnnn

i feel like killing you i feel like slapping myself i feel like stabbing myself i feel like boxing

can you just my god.
when i see it, damn sour damn tekan damn like sinking.
i dont want to see such thing anymore.
i hope i am retarded.then i wont understand anything.
better then.
arghhhhh
why macam tu?
what the hell is it?
i hate this.
i hate to have this feel.
get rid of it please.

nothing is perfect laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

;(


do i deserve this?
sometimes this question come through my mind.
yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

Worst!

Chinese New Year for 2010 finally comes to an end.everyone is back to their used-to-i surrounding and environment.so do i.haha
this year's Chinese New Year is slightly different.
so why is it different?
because this year's Valentines Day fall on the first day of Chinese New Year!
soooo cooolll ryte!ya lah!haha
it should be damn perfect.i think so i hope so i wish so lah
but herm i know i shouldnt expect too much la.
before Valentines Day, i was like so excited and thinking bout what to give you how to celebrate this big day and blah.
it's really a big day what.
but maybe you guys dont think so la.
you see, for mumS, got la Mother's Day,
of course for dadS, got la Father's Day,
and for every sweet couple, surely got this Valentines Day.
it is and should be a memorable day!
...
this is the first year of Valentines we celebrate together,
the first year Chinese New Year is crush with Valentines Day,
it signifies everything.as if it signifies yea we are together we are a couple.
i am a girl what.of course i still hope for romantic thingy and all the fairy tale scene.
of course not too over.
before the Valentines Day, i was really quite busy with my work and stuff.
but then i figure out what to give you.ahha
a medium size green bunny with medium length ears,long hand and short legs.== lame
looks a bit like alien.
then i use orange colour thread, sew my name LST and a smiley face on it.haha
oh ya, behind the bunny,beside its short cute tail.haha!
so sweet of me ryte.
but to be honest, this sewing thingy freak me out.
damn tough.
my eyes la like poping out dy,.
ahah.ya la ya la.damn cacat my sewing.ahha.like sai.nvm la.part of my handwork.lol
got heart can dy,ahha

on that very day, 13th midnight, -14th la.
he pick me up.
i asked him to stop awhile.
i gave it to him the bunny that i hid it in my big useful mickey mouse bag.ahh!
dont tease me lah!
i bought this so that you can think of me when you see it,hug it,kiss it lol.ahha
so meaningful.haha.
but then you said, no present nothing for you.
i was like urm nvm la.i knew it.sounds tak pa.
but i am still a girl.it is impossible to be dont mind.
if only i am not a girl,i wont mind
if only i dont love you, i wont mind
if only i am not yours or you're not mine, i wont mind.
==
ya la.before that i had gave myself a preparation for not accepting anything from you.
actually i dont really like to celebrate festivals, because i am worry that will you give me anything will you celebrate with me will you want to will you think of me as the first one to celebrate with will you?
i dont like thinking this and that
i dont have confident in you or i dont have confident in myself?
lol.
haha! so at first i already dont like to expect too much.expect too much will bring huge disappoinment.haha
so,i expect least all the time.haha
i will feel like you dont care?you dont care me?
i am not important to you?
you dont love me?
blah
i believe girls surely will think so.all those stupid thoughts will come through my mind.
i asked me cousin,she will feel so too if she is me.
that means what i feel is normal.==
yea i know sometimes i think too much too.
i hope for a memorable unforgettable Valentines what
i want to celebrate together
damn sweet that type
let me feel that you love me.you want to be with me forever(not to say forever,but at least at that moment)lol.....you care me,i am important and blah what
aiya!
i think you dont really care these type of festival lah.from my observation
so i didnt say anything when you say you have nothing for me for Valentines Day.
i am damn afraid that you think that i am so bossy, so troublesome, so many to complain so picky blah.
thats why i didnt spill it out.
ya la.
but Valentines i hope for something special what.
i want it to be part of our memories.
but herm seems like no trace no mark no memories no no no nothing.lol
nvm la.
being with you, i am trained to upgrade my EQ level.
wuuu
i am super 'kan de kai' dy.ahha
nothing nothing.lol
everytime maybe i wil be like angry or annoyed at that time,but just maybe after a moment or the next day, i will be okay,because i am not that type of kecil hati punye.
if that day i say so i mind i dislike i beh syok blah,i think you surely will think why am i so kecil hati==
nvm la.(consoling myself)
maybe you got that meaning and that heart to give me something lehhhh
==
ya la maybe
although this type of maybe very less will happen on you.
you asked me not to compare you with others.
okay i've tried too.but you know what i feel when i see all the girls receiving their Valentines Day present with their happy and sweet face?
i feel so jealous so envy : their boyfriend so sayang them so care them so remember this day so think of them ....
i will go : so where is mine?i deserve a great one too ryte? i mean a present or maybe a celebration is enough.as long as we're together celebrating this day,==
you cant blame me for having these thoughts: you dont love me,you dont sayang me,you dont care me.....
some of my friends expression was : he didnt give you present?nothing for you? so pity.
O.O my gawdddddd.
just forget it la!haha

no matter how, my Chinese New Year is still awesome!
i had great times with you too.
everyone! my relatives,friends and allllll
haha

aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa
if i still continue, then i will really write super damn long of these craps dy!
aha.
stop here first.
photos will be uploaded sooooooon.
in my cousin's house ryte now.
overnight here today,hahahah!

oh yea!
happy 18th birthday
my dearest cousin,LIM XIANG QING!
lots of loveeeee
hehe





goodnight!
i wont kekki dy.
cause it's over.cant do anything dy.just smileeeee.lol.ahhaaha.accpet him as what he is who he is.
hearts!

excited!

I cant wait to go back!
my sweetsweetsweet little hometown Alor Star!~
small but peaceful.haha.at least not a hectic life.==

oh! TREVOR and his,girlfriend, BECKY reached Malaysia dy.
currently, staying in my house.
aww, Trevor asked about me lol
he stills remember me, of course la stupid, cousins what.
it have been ages la didnt meet them.

this year is super great.
everyone is back!
MICHELLE and EDWARD. all my lovely aunties and uncles.
oh yea WEI XUAN and WEI JUN.
alll alll all really semua balik~
too bad ASHLEY and his girlfriend, KATIE and RUSSELL didnt come back for this year.
but nvm! still rocks.
i miss everyone!
honestly. i just realised LIM FAMILY sangat besar lah!
i am proud and blissful to be a part of LIM FAMILY.
so syok.==
haha!


tomorrow my flight is at 6:05 pm!
i am going home babe!
haah.

CHINESE NEW YEAR-great~
hha.
wear nice clothes
dress up nice
enjoy food
enjoy every little thingggg



nowwww, working on my computing assignment.
i must finish as many as i can.
gogo LST~!
haha.
ka yao ka yao.
lack of sleep.
but for my grgrgrgrggreat chinese new year, tak pa lah sacrifice a little, although it means a lot to me == haha!



ups and downs,
i miss when you use to pull my nose.
although it really hurts, i miss it lar.
feel so loved? lol
hey although my nose not that tall, i mean not tall == dont suan me kay! ahha.
nvm lar, my nose will be super tall like you as you really work hard in pulling my nose tall. ish!


lotsa thoughts in my mind.
herm.
we cant predict future, no one knows what will happen next, so if really it's so happen that one day we break up, i am sure that you'll be the best and deepest memories in my whole life.
i wont regret for everything.






REMINDER FOR TODAY:
you cant gain everything you want in this world, you gain something, surely you will lose something.god is fair, god wont give you everything. this is life. Life wont turn out as what you wish for or demand for.
perfect everything lah! it's just your sight of view whether do things turn out greatly.
change your sight of view that you have used to, you will find something different than before.
life experiences.==
dont think too much. think of now. have you perfect this moment? not yet? then go fast before the day ends. dont leave any regrets.
live your life crazily! ahha






LST rocks!

A day in Farah's house.

look! we really work on our assignment!books!hhaa

she's on phone with Naem!

what face farah!

oh my god!
i am sure that i gonna gain weight if continuing this habit! mati la ni!


today' schedule worked as planned about 5pm,farah called me up.
she's on the way to my hostel to pick me up.
faster say byebye to yy then rushed to prepare.
when she reached.i went down.
oh paise sungguh, her sister arienah is in the car.heh said hi to her.heeee
her house is at urm sri hartamas.quite near.
once i reached,i cant hear music played kinda loud.
they used to listen to music this kind of way.
if in my house,my mum will ki siao step die me.
yea la farah's mum is super modern type.
all of them practise western culture.== you can see it.haha
her mum is so nice and friendly.
super childish.speaks like a kiddo.
hha she likes to manjaaaaaaa omg

of course our main thing to do is our assignment.
work on the assignment.
super boring.super pening.
dont really know how to do.
after that we decided to ask help from Ragu.
tomorrow he will be meeting us up and help us out! yeepies.
he said it is easy and can finish it fast.how geng he is.computer freak!
pening for quite few hours then i follow Farah to her room.
how nice is her room. although it is painted pink but the pink does not annoys.haha frames of pictures hung on the wall.
farah and her boyfriend,Naem pictures.
awww.so sweet. Naem is a cute little guy.quite small size. =P
i terus nua on her bed.
sosososo comfortable although her bedroom seriously needs to tidy up!
she said her ah kak cuti==

super suddenly,Farah said COME~! I MAKE UP FOR YOU! I WANT TO SEE HOW YOU LOOK WITH MAKE UP!~
my eyes nearly pop out.
i was like NONONO.VERY CACAT!
she force me to put up some make up.
she said tak pa lah.you just close your eyes take your time sleeping on the bed then i will do the make up.==
then i just tidur like dead fish.
but too geli dah,i kept laughing.
when two eyes done,she asked me to open my eye and let her see.
no way.i cover my eyes,not going to let her see before me myself see it first.lol
she kept asking me open la.i kept nonono then we laughed like sampaties.
tak larat ni. i laugh laugh laugh and sit on the floor,asked her to go out first.
then she was like okay laaaa bo huat.she went out.then she peep.
i was like weyyyyy! close the dooor. laugh again.
then she close the door.but i am clever,i didnt release my hand because i know she will suddenly come in as i used to do so.
see! how clever am i.she did so.then laugh again.haha
she terus say okay laaa since so,you go in the bathroom and see yourself.
i close the bathroom door,but cant lock dont know why.lol
i use my foot tahan the door.
i see and see and see,rub away some.hha.
she kept hurrying me.she almost want to bang the door off dy.laughing all the time.
then after awhile i went out.
she said with make up nice mahhh == lol.
alor star girls sangat emphasize natural beauty i told her. s
he was like cheh.ahha she knows i am a lazy one ==
then we lied on her bed and talk rubbish.

went downstairs continue our assignment.
blahblahblah


webcam time.snapshot haha
she wanted to take pictures and upload it in facebook to show her new hair colour. sampat
she ask me to take together and show the make up. my goddddd
thats why you can see mostly showing her hair la through the pictures in facebook.


we had Domino's pizza for dinner! wuhu
her mum too geng dy gok.
she thinks that i am a great eater is it although i am but i dont look like kay~!
she order 4 pizza and 1 garlic bread. big size punye you tau all!
cost for rm100.thanks mama farah~ haha.
we watch 13 going on 30 sambil makan with her two lil sis.
luckily got cola.
these days kept eating fast food and cola.
i think i might go fat!
yesterday kfc.today lunch mc d.dinner pizza.all come with french fries ah cola ah! imagine how horrible habit is this.
after watching that superb nice movie,farah and arienah sent me back.
good day! ahha
thanks for the food and chocolate!hehe



oh ya!
* her is friggin hot!XD
* her cat,Kaira is cacat.how geli it is.i were totally pissed off by the stupid cat.not cute at all la your cat,farah!

weeebbbbbbcaaaaammmmmm

my shirt!hahaha! XP

smile like a sun! i want star!haha ==

qing is seriously sleeping like a pig! ==

Chee Peng!

yy! look at your face.haha.laugh youuuuuuuuuuu!

You Make Me Smile Like The Sun :D

Smile-Uncle Kracker :D


You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile






simply in love with this song.
look into the lyrics.feel it.haha
as if it's expressing what i feel
hah!




must listen!

yeepieeee

knock knock Lim Sue Ting!
haha.these days kinda busy.so, kinda like abandoned my stupid blog.
i dont really want to do so.but you know what is BUSY ==
once stop blogging although just for a few days,you will go lazy lazy lazy lazier and end up like dead fish,i mean the blog.haha

so what's up to me these days.
As i said,i think i did mention in the last last last article i guess.haha
thursday-finite mathematics quiz
friday- computing principles quiz
monday- study skills assignment dead line & intermediate english quiz.
phew~ now i get to rest and relax for maybe a day =(
haha.tomorrow going to work on my computing principles assignment.rush rush rush!

Sunday noon about 4 30pm,farah drove to my hostel and picked me up to discuss about computing principles assignment straight after she coloured her hair.honestly,her hair super nice!she kept worrying this and that about her hair.lame.
we went to Bangsar Village.
once we reached,we had a tea break i think in Sakae Sushi.
after getting our stomachs full and big enough,we headed to the Starbucks.hot spot.==
we had hot chocolate and start doing research about web authoring.
no idea what content are we going to write about.><
mati la ni!
after some discussions,felt pening and tired dy.
we shopped awhile.what a expensive mall!~ ==
haha.
suddenly farah said she want to do piercing,influence by me.
haha.she thought it's cool!yea it's cool and ROCK!
ahha.
at last,we went to Bangsar Shopping Centre to do the piercing as we cant find any in Bangsar Village.
She had her piercing in Poh Kong.
i remember the price for piercing in Poh Kong in Alor Star is only for RM15.
but helloooo KL charge rm30.double!ya lah! KL mahhhh.haha.
After that,she sent me back to my hostel.

a quick and short updates B)

oh yeaaaa i scored 8.75 over 10 in my finite mathematics quiz.brava! a round applause please.haha.nothing to be proud of la.but at least good results motivates me what.haha


tomorrow after class,farah is going to pick me up to her house for this stupid brainless assignment.i dislike computing.dont know anything about it.faster finish it up larrr yor!~kekki.


good news!
i am going back on this friday.heeeeeee
i miss everyone in alor star.
i know everyone miss me too.
haha.

this hothothot chinese new year is really about to rock!
many relatives are coming back from nowhere to ]rock this coolcool tiger year.haha.
as i know 7pek and aunty Julia reached KL already.
all of those Australia relatives are coming back!
fuyoh.
i like festivals with every relatives gathering around.
feel so warm so wuu la la.==



cant wait to go back
cant wait to meet my friends
cant wait to meet my relatives
cant wait to meet him
cant wait to celebrate chinese new year
cant wait to gather around
cant wait to playyyy and have fuunnnnn
cant wait to rock
cant wait to kisiao
cant wait everything!