you.

the beginning of my year 2011 doesnt really start off well.
31st and 1st of jan yes undeniable were awesome!
but then nightmare started.the nightmare i mean is really a headache.
like what i say, decisions are always hard to make.
too many choices are even harder to make decisions..
arghhh..well i think now, all those pissed-off choices come to an end.
i finally decided and yea i guess that's the best pathway.hope it offers me best
turning round and round, and yea at last my old college, say HI!
and yes I M BACK!

if you wanna know how many choices i had, come to me, i'll tell you!
it's overload.. waking up early in the morning and knowing i still have stuff to inquire and decide are really bad bad bad, so not refreshing my days.
at least now it's over.
im heading to my 1st year of degree in help.
well, doing commerce/business for my degree.
yeaa some might question me, why business? you can do better than business or stuffs!
HAHA thanks for the compliment, i knowwww. but if everything goes according to what you want, i dont think im a human after all.
some of you guys might really go for what you want or like, but for me, haha i like and i want too manyyy.
so why not start off by earning money with my own business or stuff, then i can expand and do more.yea imaginations again.
but yes i wanna earn, enjoy and fulfill what i've wished.
someday, i will success, i know.=)
how sad, in this reality world, money matters a lotttt, almost everything.
without money, we wont be here, fighting for our lovely future or dream.hah! sarcastic.

just viewed one of my friend's blog, her latest post somehow awakened me.
how lucky am i to have you.
yeaa, how lucky am i how lucky am i how lucky am i ;)
you are there for me no matter what happen and what am i facing.
although you dont really like to talk in a good polite way, i know, all of your sucky words are to cheer me up and advise me.
HAH seriously and honestly, i feel so touched with you baring with me all the time, as when i am facing problems i will kisiao and luanluan siao.==
aiya and lucky you are the victim.
okay larrr i know, my bad.
from choosing overseas or local to which country to go really annoyed me, yet i am excited.
you questioned me, you are the one who wish to go overseas or your dad asked you to?
i kinda stunned with the question, but i do not want to lie, i want and wish to go overseas.
i want to take a look outside from malaysia, look at the world, how nice and how tiny we are.
this doesnt mean that i never thought of you or us.
at first, when the day i will be leaving is still far, what i thought was we will be alright, we will be good, we will be loving and even better, we can do it, we can make it, we are meant for each other blahhhh
but, now, seems like the day is getting nearer(it's not like going today or what-it's a year later but it's like getting nearer day by day), what i thought is i dont think we can make it, after going into a new life in a new country new culture, maybe there might be changes.
maybe at first we are still that good, then soso, then you have your new life without me there and i have my new life without you around, then busy with each life, then problems appear and solved on and off then byebye- not meant for each other.
oh my... =(
and most probably i will be working there for few years after i graduate.
total up, it will be yearssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
not like im not coming back, but less and lesser.
;(

australia is my 1st choice in fact, because i felt that it is nearer to malaysia, and i can feel you nearer to me? haha
yaaaa.sillyyy
and the time doesnt really differs much.
uk, my 2nd choice, seems like way soooo far from you, i cant feel you arghhhh.and time differs greater than aus.hahahhaa
but my heart says, i wanna go uk. i wanna try and enjoy the fun.
then my heart says again, but i will be more far apart from youuuu no matter in km or senses.
haha
headache...
but again, you are there for me, you told me, dont ever think like that, we can make the feel right when i am back (sounds silly but i love it), you just have to think of your study thingy and thats all, dont think of others..
i know you dont want me to leave if there's a choice, but you know i want to fly i want to break through this little cage and have a try outside the world. so you are letting me go
i can feel the sadness from you, i can feel your heart not willing to let me go.
but you dont want to show it, you dont want me to feel bad and hard with my decisions.
i will be back to you, i know.
you know me best.

i hope we can be with each other forever, happily ever after like fairy tales.haha
but life is unpredictable.
i hope i wish and i pray hard.
you lighten my life..
i feel great being with you and your family, i feel homely.


thanks god for giving you to me.
hope for the best for you and me.
loves.
jia you jia you!


p/s: congrats for passing all subjects for your previous sem, and getting the highest score for 2 of the subjects.
i know you can do it! :D hehehe

let's fly together ;)