babes.

MY GIRLS.

MY SIAO CHA BORS.

there are moreeeeee.

BUT WAY TOO MANY 

._.

so, these are just ENOUGH

:)

Love,

ST.

New Chapter of My Life

helloooooooooooo

I'm not free i'm never free.

But I'm feeling too lazy to start my work.

So i'm here wasting my time.

I'm so so so tired. 

Yesterday was the annual Nottingham Games and it was pretty fun cause i get to meet up with my peeps

:)

but the journey to and fro was tooooooooooooooooooo tiring.

5 freaking hours to and fro Nottingham.

what the hell.

and the bus here is so not comfortable.simply sucks.

Malaysia's bus is way better.

Started our journey to Notts at 2 something a.m and reached there around 7 30am.

Depart from Notts at 7 30 pm and reached Exeter at 12 30am.

I'm still feeling ill.

The weather in Notts was freaking damn super cold.

and i was stupid enough to wear leather jacket -.-

should have wore my puffy coat.

good one limsueting.

OKAY.

well i guessed everyone knows i am single now.for months.-.-

:) not going to story much about it.

but at least everything is good now.

no worries. 

people come and go.

we just have to let go.

i'm enjoying my single life now

living my life beautifully.

hmm he still come across my mind at times but it's perfectly normal right.

it will be scary if i really never thought of him.

nearly freaking 4 years of relationship halo.

hope he's fine hope everything is fine.

yep.

that's it.

OKAY OKAY

back to me me me.

everything is good. 

I'M JUST TOO BUSY.

tons of things to do and i'm still here.

slacking like always.

YEAR 2 is WTF TOUGH.

this is gonna be a tough year.

i'm so gonna gear up and go through this beautifully and steadily!

fighting fighting.

too much to think of. a lot of things happening around me.

and i just dont know what to do and say.

it's more like just hell leave me alone from this bullshit drama and conflicts.

and yes there's this guy constantly popping in my mind. 

but not gonna jump into a relationship too fast.

i will just take my time.

i love the flattered feeling i get from all the compliments after breaking up and getting prettier.

wellwell. HAH!

also, i need to think twice whether i like him or maybe he's just there when i'm feeling empty.

lst no dont hurt him ok.

i hope he's not the rebound guy.

end of my story telling.

hahahahahahaha

till next time.

BYE.

Love, 

LST.

Diversity Ball, ciao.

不是不喜欢写英文 只是真的比较喜欢写华语
形容也比较贴切
真的很不喜欢很喜欢有意无意的炫耀自己的英文的人
真的很做作很烦很惹人厌
不是妒忌你的英文 你的英文不管好不好 都好 可是太做作就真的几好也每人喜欢
有麝自然香 何必当风立
懂？

okay sorry i sound sooooo aunty here.
i know i'm auntie enough but i just cant stop being so auntie -.-
what i said memang FACT!
i just cant tahan sorry. dont you find it annoying?
yes i m sure you do.


finally Diversity Ball ended beautifully yest night.
it's really a great night again, after SEA night.
2nd time representing Malaysian Society (MSOC) performing.
i'm so honoured :)
although malaysia somehow sucks (this was what i used to think before coming here, and still is), malaysia somehow rocks which i never realised untill i came here.
when everyone is so far away from home, we are all in one.
we are like a big family.
some friends just randomly asked how can we malaysians being so united.
the proud feeling, which i cant ever forget.
apart from all the complicated politics and wtv it is, malaysia is still a good place
MALAYSIA BOLEH!
some might just questioned, why am i having all of these lame thoughts.-.-
which they might expect me to be like yea uk is better, i hate malaysia etc......................................
but trust me, come here and you'll know and feel what i feel right nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
maybe those who are studying abroad will understand what i feel and what im saying nowwww.
right?
HAHAH.
come, let's make MALAYSIA improve together!
patriotic nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
we have to, i really mean it.... if only i have the ability -.-


one month of dance practice just passed like this.
one night of performance just finished like this.
now what's left and whats coming next?
MACFIS event on the 9th which is next sat
COURSEWORK, PRESENTATION AND QUIZ
2 coursework + presentation due on the 15th
1 quiz on 21st
anddddddd 30th of march, end of 2nd term.
ya hoooooooo!


gonna work harderrrrrr yo.
cant wait to go back malaysia yo.
see you guys back in malaysia yo.
:D


im going to shower yo.
bye yo.
HAH.

为了长大而长大

久违了

这几天 都在看回自己以前在这blog 写下的片片文章
十分感触 真的很有感触
虽然看回 会觉得自己很可笑 自己怎会写那些不耻的东西
可是正是那些东西是自己现在要也没有 再也找不回的单纯快乐
为了简单快乐 而简单地快乐 的感觉

不想承认自己老了长大了 也真的不行了
以前要说什么要写什么要分享什么就分享什么
终于 知道自己为什么那么not motivated to update my blog
正是因为 自己长大了
没有以前的简单快乐 要做什么就作什么的样子了

现在 大多数的感觉 感想 心事 快乐 悲哀 愤怒 等等 都留给自己收
因为 就会有这种思想- 说了又不是每个人懂  也不是每个人可以理解 也不是每个人赞同 也不想听任何comment 也不是每个人要听要看的
又何必写呢
又何必在这抒发呢
还是收给自己好了

赞同吗?
我说的太对了吧

真的 很想 很想 回到从前
还没长那么大  的我
中学的我
真的很不想长大
不想那么复杂
不想有那么多参杂在一起的情绪
想为简单快乐而快乐而大笑
想为简单悲伤而伤心而大哭
想为简单愤怒而生气而ki siao
想为简单情绪而简单反应而任意抒发

如果 全部东西有那么简单就好了
如果这种单纯感情 不会随着年龄成长 而改变而消失就好了
不知不觉 已经几年的blog 了



老娘 在此正式的说
我 今年要正式迈入  21岁了


end.

simple simple update

Hi everyone,

am so sorry. i still cant adapt the blogging habit back like i used to.

but i feel like blogging right now because i just read the comment by LSS in the previous post

that's my motivation of keep blogging cause you guys really care and will read what i'd written :)

yeah FIRST HAPPY NEWS,

i got my IPHONE 5 babe!

okay it's been a week since i got it -.-

finally i got my own smartphone. no more nokia noob phone and no more using bf's iphone to insta and no more envying others having smartphone but not me.kekeke

I CAN INSTA NOW! :D 

and yesh that's the reason for not blogging frequently.

instagram is like facebook, twitter and blog.

latest news, look and everything you want to say or show can be shown in instagram.

sooooo easy. that's why WHY TYPE SO LONG WHEN YOU CAN TAKE  NICE PHOTO, UPLOAD IT AND THE REST OF THE WORLD KNOWS.

no matter how, only words can truly describe and explain my thoughts.

last monday, 

i went to THORPE PARK in STAINES

it's fun! but why rain.rain, you just ruined our hyper moood. it's freezing cold there.

I AM TIMID. i dont really like playing theseeeee extreme games. i can dieeeee.

but what to do, i must show i can.lol.me being ego.

i dont want to show my chicken side.hahaha so i dont care, whatever they played, i played as well.

wellll, it turned up quite good. afterall it's just a ride going up down turn around that's all.

i kept telling myself, everything will be over in minutes or maybe seconds. then i just pushed myself up to the ride and GOOOOOOOOOOO.

and good to say that, that worked pretty well. i went for like 7 different rides but in fact the rides are almost the same like what i said go up down turn around then that's all. haha

after a few rides, I FELT SO NUMBED. i didint even scream after that. my mind was all about I WANT T GO HOME ASAP, I'M TOO TIRED (1st day of period- damnnnnn)

and we went to GHOST HOUSE----- THE SAW ALIVE.

so basically everything and every workers inside were all like the saw movie. that's what i know cause i didnt really watch the movie before.toooo scary to me.  hahaha

i was soooooooo nervous at first but because of my laziness and tiredness and cant-wait-to-go-back-ness, 

i didnt even shout or get frightened. but it's also all the same. they will come scare you, touch you and make scary sounds. 

i'm sooooooooooooo GENG! i am a grown up now! haha when you realise there's nothing to scare off.

:D awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

i am so busy lately, sigh sigh sigh

monday and wednesday got this culture dance practice for South East Asia (SEA) night.

tuesday thursday or weekends i got this netball practice for Nottingham Games.

WO HEN LEI A!

but nottingham game is on this saturday so this gonna end soon

THEN next monday - accounting test OMG; wedesday- law assignment due date =(

SEA night is on the end of nov.

soonsooooooon.

cant wait to get everything done and rest my fat ass ><

okay got to go shower now!

soon to be continued haha!

bye everyone.

good day!

:D

LST.

happy mode ONZ

anyehaseiyo! haha okay i dont know is my spelling right but as long as you get me right! :)

so into runningman lately.i know i am so late and outdated.
but at least i catch up a bit i guess?
hehe. i heard a lot of good comments of runningman about how funny and fun is the variety show.
but i doubt that and i never wanted to try watch even an episode.
since i came here, i got quite sien and dull because of the strong home-sick and weather, i started to watch RM which i get all the episodes from chenwei!
and argh now I AM SO INTO GARY!
he's sooooooooooooooooooooooo cute.
can i want him? can i can i?
he's so cute and stupid. he looks so good with ji hyo! i want them be together can they can they?
although ji hyo got her ceo boyfriend now. let's hope they break up asap then be with gary! HAHAHA

back to my life.
rained for the whole day. cold like shit.
have been quite frustrated and busy with my lectures and tutorials work.
hen sien ah. have to do work. i dont have and i dont even do the tutorial work back in malaysia.
so it's like the 1st time ever after primary school.
must get used to it soon aite!
=(  trying hard not to stress myself up.
i can get pretty stress up when there are like tons of things tangling there waiting for me to finish them up.
i'm going to study some economics now! but just update a little before i get started.
boring moment= study moment.
cooked curry chicken myself for the 1st time :) looks ok right haha


oh yeah!
cant wait for winter break!
I AM GOING TO BERLIN, GERMANY for 4 days!
yeepie! 74 pounds to and fro flight ticket.
quite cheap kan? heh. :) luckily grab the chance to travel.
1st term finals is starting on 7th of jan but I DONT CARE.
well dont worry i will sort things out.
time management! yes need a wise time management.
am going with bro's gf, her brother and one girl friend of her's.
it will be fun! hehe








see, it's so nice right!
cant wait to spend my winter break there!
it's like a dream land. so christmas! :)
never spent any christmas at places like this before.
yes finally finally!
hopefully it will be as fun as i thought.
:D


okay! hardcore time
ciao got to study study study a bit haha

L.S.T

finally, U to the K.

........................................

not gonna say hi, i am back again. this is way too boring.
i guess everyone is tired of my hi i am back and then eventually gone missing again.
okay. so i will just say HALO EVERYONE OUT THERE! HOW ARE YOU? I MISS YOU ;)

i'm currently in exeter, uk now.
reached on 14th sept. and now it's the 4th of oct.
time really flies.
i'm being so emotional now
feelings keep rushing up to my mind keep rolling over and over again, unwilling to leave me alone.
i'm 20 what the hell.
and look at my profile, it's still 19th, written there.
i wish i am though.
too much to talk about that i dont even know where to start.
well, yea i'm studying in University of Exeter now. a nice campus but just a small city here.
everything is so different from malaysia which i really miss malaysia.
although malaysia sucks in some aspects like stupid politics, dirty environment etc, i still like malaysia
okay i will now say i dont like uk. sure some of you reading this will definitely say ALAH YOU WONT BE SAYING SO AFTER SOME TIME OR GET USED TO UK LIFE.
alright. we shall see ok? but malaysia, i love you!
my family, my friends, my boyfriend, my relatives, my home are all in malaysia.
i want them all to be with me =(

things are quite fine here. just that it's quite tough and complicated to start over everything here.
it's just like going to primary school, can you remember that?
going to school feeling afraid, didnt know anything and anyone there, hoping for good things to happen etc.
but this time, it's the thinking, the maturity, the feeling are different.
not the naive, innocent primary student anymore which we just talk and laugh, hurt and cry; do whatever we want.
it's different. sometimes you just have to toughen yourself up even though it's so so so tough for you that you can really cry.
we tend to think more now.in anything. that's what aches my mind. what the hell. can i just be naive enough to escape from these lousy thoughts?
even friends i met here, herm kinda different from me, and yes i know this is like for sure.
hoping to find some friends can be close to me.
it's really hard to act like nothing or knowing nothing in front of your so-called friends when actually you know everything.
i reallllyyyyy cant tahan! i really want to confront with them at that moment.
i want to dok bao them.lol the feeling sure damn satisfying and syok.
but i'm 20th so i have to act like a 20.
just suck it up girl.
they have their games and rules to play. so if you cant join in then step out.
dont make yourself suffer. you dont deserve it! they dont even care! wake up stupid you.
i feel like slapping myself. although i always tell myself aiya nothing one la dont have to care about them different people different pattern etc, i end up still thinking over and over again at the end of the day.
-.-
what do you expect miss lst!
you cant meet every friends who you will ngam and be close to right!
sampat!


how about classes?
it's still ok for now.
except for homeworks and an once a week tutorial quiz and once a week graded assignment.
cool ?
i can feel the stress starting from the first day.
everyone here is like wtf crazy hardworking clever people.
who am i and what am i to compete with them
lowest esteem ever!
everyone here is like studying all the time. memang damn am am lai, i think la.
i can see from faces.lol
all of them aiming for first class honour. of course i hope and want and will go for that.
but they are toooooooooooooooo extreme. like will die if i am not a first class honour degree grads.
wtf wtf wtf.
stress giler.
i just want to live happily here, explore and experience things here.
i hope i can balance education and fun very very well.
jia you jia you lst. you can do this.
must believe in yourself. ;)


do i like exeter?
it's okay. just a bit boring.
everyday is just wake up, go to class, come back from class, cook, eat, watch RM and sleep.
else, go to town after class, shop for groceries or clothes.
that's all that can be done here.
is uk memang like this? even in every cities?
i miss late night outing in malaysia, karaoke session, korean food- daorae and sushi!, drinking, going over friend's house etc. every single thing in malaysia!
there's nothing to here basically.
so i shall spend the time studying and doing homework.hahaha!
eh for the first time since primary school i guess, i really do my homework.
good thing good thing.
at least i work hard for it.
i am not gonna waste any single pennies my dad paid for me to study in uk.
hopefully i wont disappoint my family and friends!

oh yeah. i have to walk uphill to uni every morning for 20 minutes!
great? NOT AT ALL.
exercise i'll take it as.
exercise before class.great.
and my housemates are being so friendly and nice to each other too.
trey from london, callan from usa and danielle from canada. they are very nice.
helped me alot in cooking which i sucks like hell.
another housemate- shermaine from london.
i rarely see her around. non of us really sees her in the flat.
well it's ok.
hopefully things will get better day by day!

luck please come to me!
and stay with me!
it's not that i dont have luck but hehe more luck please *greedy*
everything will be fine.
"we cant make the right decision, but we can make the decision right" - from mr. someone which i forget.
"happiness is a choice" - from Evan Tan, he's always being so motivated. whenever i feel down, i will go and read his everyday motivating status from facebook.haha thanks for sharing.
these 2 are my motto. it's in my mind every single second, to cheer me up, to enlighten me.


having flu today.
argh. got to go shower!
bye everyone!
all is well! another favourite saying.


all of you guys must take care! we will meet each other in 9 months time!
:D


L.S.T