thoughtss!

if only you can understand.
these days feel like want to start with this sentence in everything.


i didnt attend class today because headache X)
haha.
i cant sleep well yest!
slept around 7.==

...

wondering why these days i am super eagerly hope that i am fully 18th!
haha
yest i went to maybank with my cousin, qing to do an ATM card.
too bad i am not yet fully 18th so i cant do one.
i want to take all the money out! =D
==
so baddddd
qing's birthday just passed so she can create one la.
then my money got stuck la dui!
haha. not enough money dy. this coming friday i have to hand in the rental
moreover, now the money left is just rm250==
told my dad to use qing's account to transfer money for me first.if not i can die here ==

and!
if i am 18th, feel like big girl as if 18th the numbering or maybe it sounds like big girl.haha
then maybe more and more and more freedom.lol
haha
then i can take my own passport, keep it in my own then once i got enough money, i will go travel =)
haha.how nice. then go rock wuhu!
go find suening at canada, go find jared at uk, go find bro and jher hau at us, go find cousins at aus, go paris, go where still? everywhere laaaaa
ahah.

dont know why i super duper hyper want to celebrate my birthday.
i mean i feel like i want to have a birthday party==
feel like waant to buy lotsa cakes all different flavours colours blah, then blow candles then eat up allll the cakes~!! so colourful so wonderful so blissful.
then i get many many presents and warm greetings from everyone haha.
everytime when it is my birthday, i feel so pampered, so like many people sayang me, so like a baby ==
haha!
it's too early to think for my birthday!wake up la you.ahha
it's just the beginning of the year lol!
then hor(continuing)
all my dearest friends and him come to celebrate with me.
everyone super happy
then get hugs and kisses from every lovely one ==
so miang! haha
then rock out the nights.
haha :)
probably seeing too many cakes today.
feel like i want sapu all the cakes!

erk herm(clearing my throat)
thymes cake shop! i specially promote!
too yummyyyyy!~ starvinggggg my god.
the cakes are awesome! i can feel it in my mouth and my stomach! blisssss with food
haha

later i am going to have dinner at fish & co.
wuhu!~
i am going to have the new york fish and chip==
omggg it is contented with cheeeseeee =P
my favourite!
wulala


seriously, i love food!
how can i resist food?!
==
i hope to eat every goodies in this whole wide world.
taste every different thingy sounds so great!~
=)

If.

what i want?
i dont know what i want
i want it seriously but do you think i can?
i dont have the confidence in myself either :|
if i have any chance.
if i have any option
if i have any better one
if only you can understand
if only i can understand
if only i can stand still
if only i can withstand everything
if only it's the fate
if only i am the one
=|


my mind is blank!
after bathing, i just sat on my bed, wondering what to do.
what useful thing to do.
i dont know what to do
like empty minded
no water anymore, go do a cup of instant kek hwa==
switch on the pc, see this see that.
then start blogging.
headache again helllll


i need something to boost up my life my spirit
i call wei thing.she is currently in ns.
talk with her for about half an hour.
how wonderful is her dream, it use to be part of my dream too haha!
i still remember =)
so can i?
really can??


i am going back to get my spm results on 15th, immediately after my class.
it will be released on 16th!
oh gawsh!~
please be good, but if can, please be great!
i need scholarships tooo la hell
hope i can get the best
namonamo

thinking not to come back after getting my result.
i mean maybe go scream and shout till my ass drop first only come back hah!
planning planning!
i think my dad will be okay with it gok.
just say oh i am going to travel somewhere a few days with my friends as we just get our spm results, we wanna go rock! >< !
everybody will be back that time heeeeee
baguih!~


i cant wait for this friday
i am not sure whether can i
but i am sure i must and have to take a look in it seriously
maybe it turns out to be the one?! ==



blah blah blah!

=(

i am unhappy and unsatisfied with my study life now.
i chat with my brother just now.
tears trickling down.
i dont feel the excitement to attend class at all.
why?
because i know these arent what i want,expect and hope for.
everyday when i wake up,i was like oh no have to attend class again.
i dont have the ohm the power the strength to move on everyday.
i drag myself to school.
i was like this is my reponsibility, i have to.
but i know these arent what i wish for.
is college life like this?
i dont like it.
i thought college life should be wonderful, not to say wonderful.
but maybe full of fun and joy.
a place a condition an environment that i like i love and i am willing to move on everyday.
this aint a thing that i have full of anticipation for everyday.
everyday, i just hope the class and the day end as fast as possible.
=(



-i just wanna scream and lose control, throw my hand and let it go, forget about everything and runaway~
-throw it away forget yesterday we ll make the great escape.
-and even when your hope is gone, move along move along like i know you'll too

everytime when i am seriously depressed, these part of lyrics will come to my mind.
and i will listen for the whole day until i am okay
hope it works.
;)






nights!
serious headache.
nearly pengsan when i am going to the toilet
==

wonderful colourful blissful!~

dont kill me for uploading your naked photos! haha ==
although it sucks lah! XDXD nvm,i suka can liao!
wow miang betul ==

my sewing! although it sucks!

see the hands! the difference.left one so pity haih.

see!!! the left hand is stil fit and stiff! look at the right one.the skin also nua nua ki.the flesh missing all.how dare you bully my bunny till cacat! ish

his face was like "tuudia so ugly" teasing me

my art work! and his == his cacat punye

trying to show off his nail-polish skills==

honey you look hawt!

zhan sheng and shu yee

joseph, tubak and treeee

ks tim and ultragal! ==

honey and ceavs

i like this! eeee smileee hahaha

yello sir! blah with tree bro==

the night of flowers =)

happy 17th birthday honey! i come back for you leh! shhhh hahaha!

at his penang apartment.== horrible!guys are really guys. terrible.==





i can smile without you!~
but, i will feel like smiling and laughing more and better with you around.
even prettier and blissful smile =)
i was in front the mirror washing my
hands,
suddenly you hug me from the back with the jacket unzip and surround me with the unzipped jacket tightly.
i look at the mirror, i smile with bliss, that's my man and that's what and how we are.
blushing.remembering my face so pinkish so rosy== haha.
we look at the mirror. difficult to describe how it feels that way round.


i wont forget the blissful feeling when you ask me to wear into the same jacket that you're wearing that time.so close so warm.
both of us wearing the same jacket, fit into the same jacket.
find it hard to move,like robot. hands tersangkut. when my hand move, he too have to move.
when he want to sit, he couldnt, he has to ask me to sit down at the same time because 2 people in one jacket== tersangkut lah ni!==

too bad i forgot to ask li take picture of both of us in that funny scene==
li still laughing hahaha :3


thanks for the memories =)

=]

When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running in her mind.

When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how
long you will be around.

When a girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds, she is not fine at all.

When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying.

When a girl lays on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.

When a girl says ' I love you ', she means it.

When a girl says ' I miss you ' , no one in this world can miss you more than
that.



Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person



Find a guy
who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses
your forehead.

who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

who holds your hand in front of his friends.

who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he
is to have you.

who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

:D

a sweet talk on the bed is totally awesome for me.
lie on your warm chest, your hands hugging me.
i can hear your heartbeat.
i can feel your warm warm warm body temperature.
haha.

you la!
today make me damn mad a few times!
scold me ben4 dao4 li2 pu3!
i didnt know why macam tu pun ish.
luckily my big big big fire is overwhelmed with the movie we watch together, hua tian xi shi!
niceeee
laugh till siao ==
after that again..
maile you.then scold me this and that.
my face go tulan!
hate you always make me get damn mad.
tulan liao then come nua me do like good people so innocent
what a stupid guy!==


dont bully my bunny!
so pity my bunny.
one hand become cacat liao!
no flesh dy== super thin.got the skin nia.haih
the other still firm and fit gok.
you and li pun sama sama say the thin hand is yours, the fit one is mine.
how dare you two.
take back my bunny!kanasai~!

i get your nails done with mint green nail polish.haha!
one hand nia actually XDXD
so ngam i bought it for myself then sun bian make your longlong girlish nails done.ahha
thanks to me!
you not pro la.hao lian say want to show me what is perfect nail polish
manatau so cacat. cacat than mine.
cheh! beh ki la you.
still ngenge say is style ==
i dont let you wash away haha.
good doggie good bobby!
XDXD

p/s: i really like and love to have a nice,good,great talk with you, lying on the bed, my head on your chest, your hands hugging me, i feel so comfortable so warm so surrounded with your care and love, the way we get along is sosososo unique== funny! ahha.maybe we're perfect for each other in this way.if one day, we suddenly change our get-along-style, maybe nothing will work our between us.haha

i am not da tou! how dare you.
and yea! you're bi4 ti4 xiao2 jie3! ahhahaa
your game character name.you say is me==
manatau you la now really is bi4 ti4 xiao2 jie3! ahhaha
laugh you laugh you!!!XDXD

=(

love you yet hate you
i feel like i am so unimportant to you
i cant even stand a place in your heart
why?
maybe you're not mine.
we arent meant for each other perhaps.
sometimes i hope for forever although it's damn unrealistic thinking
i hope we can be like your big brother and your sister-in-law
how dumb am i
sometimes i feel like yesh! you're what i am looking for.
we are suitable to each other in some kind of way, i think la.not including what you think,i have no idea about you==
am i giving my heart and soul too much into you?
because i cant feel like you love me a damn too

i love you
i simply love you

i am a hopeless romantic
when i am in love, i will totally give a damn.
but in some kind of way,i am rational too
lol.
i ignore you for quite some time dy, i feel so weird.
cant get used to it
miss you so my man!~
where are you, what are you doing?
do you miss me like i do?
;(



cut the crap off la LST==


mirror mirror on the wall,
tell me who you love the most,once and for all?
wuu~
not bad.


a peace of mind





=)